I moved to London on my own last November. Before then, I had always been surrounded by people (my family) who would come with me to things if I didn't want to be alone. I've never had many friends, yet alone friends interested in the same things I am, but I had that reassurance and if I wanted to go to a ballet, museum, movie, you name it, I could just take my sister or my mother.
This month, and also the past two or three, I've come to realize that if I want to do something, I don't need anyone with me. Yes, it's more fun and you get more out of experiences when you can share them with others, but not having a companion shouldn't stop me (or you) from doing something I enjoy.
I love movies and going to the cinema, and I bought a membership so I can go to all the movies I want, which means 99.9% of the time I'm going alone. It's a bit "blah" right after when you see people commenting but, in the end, it doesn't really matter because you've seen the movie and you've been part of the story.
Same with theatre. If no one wants to pay to go to movies, think about theatre, which is 4 times more expensive. But I do; I love theatre and don't mind paying for it if there's something I really want to see. I saw To Kill A Mockingbird just last week, got an awesome ticket (it's way easier to get a good ticket if you're just buying one), cried without feeling judged, and got to meet Robert Sean Leonard afterwards. All that happened because I didn't mind going alone.
People do look at you sometimes , but you will never see those people again. If you're afraid of doing things on your own, don't be; live the life you want, not the one others expect you to live.
I created this blog not that long ago because I love writing. Some of you probably already knew that, but what you might not know is that I was quite tired of only writing about beauty and fashion. My previous blog, which is still up in case you want to take a look, was a great way for me to start blogging and get into that world. Without it, I would have never started uploading content to YouTube because I've never been confident and the mere thought of filming myself for the world to see was terrifying.
I enjoyed that blog for a while and, even though I still love beauty and fashion, I don't feel the need to write about it all the time. In fact, I kind of hate it a little bit; let me explain. I want the content that I put up on the internet to have value to myself, and I don't want to upload just for the sake of it, because I feel like it's a chore. That's what my fashion/beauty blog has been to me recently, and that's the reason why I haven't posted there in a while. All my needs to talk about those topics are filled with my youtube channel, and taking more time to say the same thing feels pointless. I know it's a great outlet for people to see it, to get more views, etc, but that's not why I'm doing any of it.
Blogging is a hobby for me, and it should be fun. I'm not making any money through it and if it's going to take up all my free time, I better enjoy what I'm doing. My personality has changed a bit in the past 4 years and I've grown to be proud of the things I like. I used to be scared of people judging me for liking certain things, but I've outgrown that phase and this blog came into place. A lot of people won't care about what movies I watch, and what books I read, or what my thoughts are on certain topics, but I like writing about it. I'm pretty serious about writing, actually, and any practice is good. I enjoy it. That should be enough.
I'm not sure what the whole point of this post is, but I did want to write it, and I'm having fun doing so. If no one reads it, so be it. If people do read it and like it, even better. Thank you.